Being Alone

[anewbeginning]

I hate it... I just hate it..

sunday was the 4th of July... I was out walking and I watched my neighbors with friends and family... celebrating.. laughing.. having a great time.. and I had no one to share the holiday with..

I am dating a really great guy.. but he hasn't told his kids about me... he spent the holiday with them.. and I got a one line message from him at the beginning of the day.. nothing more.. then monday.. one more line.. and nothing.. he was supposed to work monday.. and I got nothing from him..

I just don't understand.. not a single word either day about loving me or missing me.. wtf?

anyhow... I really don't like being alone.. I have done nothing but cry..

is anyone else feeling lonely? is this normal? I mean.. I have been alone now for 3 years.. so why can't I just quit being lonely? I do things.. I crochet.. I quilt.. I read.. I watch movies.. I go out shopping, to movies.. etc... and yet.. I am still lonely... grrrrr....

sorry.. just venting.. I can't do that anywhere else...

[Lena]

awww sorry Anew!!
I don't think that loneliness will ever go away completely as something will always come along and remind you! Especially when you do have someone, but that someone isn't making himself available to you properly yet!
You think of all the things you could be doing together, especially on special occasions like the 4th for you, and also the time you could be spending together, probably thinking of time wasted!
Simple things like watching a film together! The coziness of being together and feeling loved without words!
So while you can't be together you look forward to the warm texts, showing how loved you are! They don't always have to be texts telling you he loves you, but just knowing that he is thinking of you and missing you enough to be in touch often, no matter where he is or what he is doing!!

I don't know why he hasn't texted you more on these days!
Could be a number of reasons! Just hope it isn't anything too awful!
Have you texted him to ask him or just to ask him if everything is ok with him?
Have you kept up the texts?
I can understand how you are feeling...... Tears could be the only way to help stop the feeling being so strong! Kinds of releases something you have been storing up!

Has it been any better since yesterday?

[Wanda Ring]

Hi anew...it seems like most of the activities and hobbies you enjoy are individual things. Have you tried joining different kinds of clubs or sports activities that involve other people?

It is really difficult to meet and make new friends as we age, even more so when we've had a major move or career change. I find volunteering helpful especially during the times that I know that I am going to be alone, it helps to be around other people and you just may meet someone.

[Lena]

Hope no one is alone anymore!