Sitting here...

[anewbeginning]

I am sitting here just listening to the wind.. the chimes... the silence...


What are you sitting there doing?

[LadyMoon]

I am just sitting here looking at the remains of my boiled egg and toast, listening to the kids laughing and playing in the other room, looking at the deep snow in the backyard and also I have a "top ten" radio station on so it's like background music. :)

[tallguy32]

Just in the middle of working on my car. Waiting for my buddy to run me to the parts store real quick. I need this car fixed today !! It's damn cold here. I'm trying to stay in and stay warm

[Lena]

Sitting here chatting!!

[anewbeginning]

I am just sitting here wondering what tomorrow will bring..

[NotTooGirly]

I am sitting here in an empty apartment (roommates are gone for the night) enjoying the solitude and the smell of the Christmas tree.

[LadyMoon]

well.. don't touch it NTG! (LOL)

I'm just sitting here sipping red wine, the kids are finally alseep and watching a silly movie.

[Lena]

Love the smell of a real tree!

Sitting here wrapping presents!

[anewbeginning]

avoiding work and waiting for my daughter to wake up so I can go shopping..

[Lena]

Thinking about going for a shower!

[tallguy32]

Sitting here thinking about 5 of my co-workers who where hurt yesterday. Nothing serious, they are all out of hospital already but it's a wake up call for a lot of us.

[Lena]

aww... sorry to hear that Tallg!!! Glad to know they are out of hospital already!!
Good to see you here!

[Lena]

Sitting here, thinking of how much I am going to miss a good friend for a couple of weeks!! Fancy going on holiday to far away places without me!!

[LadyMoon]

Sitting here watching t.v. and surfing the net. :)

[anewbeginning]

feeling empty... all I asked for was to know what was going on.. he won't even answer me.. he is emailing others.. why can't I get a simple answer to how he is doing?

I have asked him why he hates me so much.. he won't even answer that.. I guess he just wants me to stop.. he had her tell me to.. I just want answers and he won't give them to me.. I just wanted his friendship, which he promised me and then walked away..

[tallguy32]

Anew

Some men are only going to communicate until they are done with you. Once they are finished they will cut off all communication. Some times because he is feeling guilty, some times he's just simply an ass. Either way he's not worth all the emotional energy you've been putting into him

[NotTooGirly]

Anew, TG is right: this guy isn't worth it. He's not what you thought he was, and he's proven that in spades by his behavior. That said, don't beat yourself up about it - we all fall for the wrong person at least once in our lives. Don't let this bastard take over your emotions and strip you of your strength and beauty - you are better than that and there are others out there who will recognize that and see all of the wonderful things you are.

[anewbeginning]

Anew

Some men are only going to communicate until they are done with you. Once they are finished they will cut off all communication. Some times because he is feeling guilty, some times he's just simply an ass. Either way he's not worth all the emotional energy you've been putting into him

Anew, TG is right: this guy isn't worth it. He's not what you thought he was, and he's proven that in spades by his behavior. That said, don't beat yourself up about it - we all fall for the wrong person at least once in our lives. Don't let this bastard take over your emotions and strip you of your strength and beauty - you are better than that and there are others out there who will recognize that and see all of the wonderful things you are.

OMG you guys are totally right... I haven't been feeling good tonight and I decided to clean some old stuff of my computer.. I found some conversations between me and another girl he was talking to at the beginning of our relationship.. He told her that she was the one he spent all his time talking to.. that he only wanted her and that the other women he talked to meant nothing to him.. one of those women being me... this is while he and I were doing a coaching session at MandF for the May masturbation race... so he lied to her... she thought she was the only one he wanted.. why didn't I remember this? Everything he told her and did to her he did to me at the end.. he got bored with me.. tired of me... started using his wife as the excuse he couldn't talk to me in July when all along he was talking to someone new.... when he told me he couldn't wait for me to get home in August so we could pick up the phone calls because he missed my voice so much... but then he barely called... a few times.. to hear me cum for him... the morning calls on his way to work.. laughing and chatting about his health and the other drivers... but they subsided... slowly.. and he wouldn't tell me why..

sigh... enough of that.. I was played.. I see that now and god I feel humiliated for allowing it to happen to me... the funny thing is... he really does care about all the women he talks to.. I am actually sorry for him.. he allows women in close but whenever it gets to be too much he uses his marriage as the way out.. instead of facing the possibility of hurting someone he just quits talking to them.. not realizing that that hurts more than anything else...

I feel relief.. knowing I am moving forward and being strong for me..

Do I still love him? Yes.. I always will.. but I am stupid and will not allow myself to be played again..

[LadyMoon]

Anew... I am so sorry that you felt so sad and glad that you are seeing it for what it was. It's so nice how you are still able to keep your heart open.. you are so sweet.

Anyway.. ahem.. I am just sitting here waiting for the kettle to finishing boiling!

[Lena]

Hope that kettle didn't take too long!


Sitting here writing an e-mail to someone far away right now!

[anewbeginning]

sitting here ready to go shower, change, buy some snacks to ring in the New Years....

I am planning the cake for Jr's birthday... and I am set to start fresh in 2009!! I am so excited!!

[tallguy32]

Chatting with an old friend on facebook. I'm pretty impressed with this program.

[NotTooGirly]

Sitting here, doing laundry, listening to music, eating chocolate :o and chatting online with a friend. What a great place to be on a cold, rainy day.

[Lena]

Sitting here eating nuts and talking to my daughter!

[anewbeginning]

getting ready to clean the house again...

[tallguy32]

Clean the house? Nonononononono It's time to move....lol

I ked, I ked

[tin_heart_gal]

Sitting here freezing my arse off!!
its -26!

[NotTooGirly]

Sitting here at the office watching the ship sink (sigh) but working on finding a new ship to jump to soon. :) Also listening to some cheesy 80s music on my iPod.

[tallguy32]

Good luck with the shipo thing NTG, any luck yet?

I'm heading to the gym. It's going to hurt so gooooood.

[LadyMoon]

Sitting here on my sore-bum (after my fall outside) going through paperwork for the kid's school, pizza day, etc. Also doing other research and contemplating working on my essay.

Also emailing back my good long-term friend. And, obviously.. catching up on the posts here at D&S. :)

[tallguy32]

Listening to the local country music station, checking my messages on an online dating site and catching up with my friends here. Just got home from the gym. Life feels pretty damn good.

[Lena]

Eating chocolate covered Peanuts! Can't stop eating them!
Wonder how many times I have to run up and down the stairs to make up for it!!

[NotTooGirly]

Sitting here listening to some new music I picked up the other day, wondering just how looooooong this workday is going to be, feels like it's gone on forever!!

[socialgirl73]

I am sitting and listening to my children play in the next room...

[Lena]

Thinking I should really get some lunch!

[tallguy32]

Waiting for my relief to come in so I can head for the gym

[LadyMoon]

Sitting here finishing my coffee in silence, sending out a few emails, wondering if everything will work out.

[tallguy32]

Sitting here finishing my coffee in silence, sending out a few emails, wondering if everything will work out.



It always works out ladymoon.

This is how I tackle problems. It might help you, it might not. Take a good long hard look at the situation. Imagine the worst outcome. Can you handle the worst that might happen? Once you know you can handle the worst outcome act, whatever will happen will never be as bad as the worst that could happen and you've already decided that you can deal with that so teh rest is easy.

[LadyMoon]

It always works out ladymoon.

This is how I tackle problems. It might help you, it might not. Take a good long hard look at the situation. Imagine the worst outcome. Can you handle the worst that might happen? Once you know you can handle the worst outcome act, whatever will happen will never be as bad as the worst that could happen and you've already decided that you can deal with that so teh rest is easy.

Hey thanks.. :)

[tallguy32]

Sitting here listening to Montgomery Gentry and waiting for it to warm up outside. It's supposed to hit +11 here today. I'm thinking I'm going to take my street bike out for a tear. It needs it, so do I.

[Lena]

Sitting here thinking this is a very strange film on the TV right now!

[NotTooGirly]

Sitting here waiting for my roommate to finish the dishes so that I can grab a shower before bed...what a long weekend!!

[Dippy]

Sitting here wondering why I can't log in??
Differing usernames is clearly too challenging...

[NotTooGirly]

Sutting here in an office that is completely dark save for the glow of the monitor...for some reason the power is on, but none of the lights are working. And I came in early to catch up my filing - oh well!! :p

[Lena]

Sitting here smiling at a text!!

[tallguy32]

sitting here texting back and forth picking a place to go watch the game. Yes NTG I'm going to watch the game. I'm almost turning into a Canadian. lol

[NotTooGirly]

I was just sitting here at work trying not to get too annoyed with our accountant, but TG's confession nearly knocked me off my chair!! Don't tell me you're cheering for the Oilers, I'll have to find a new friend!! ;)

[tallguy32]

Ha!!! The oilers won. I've got to cheer for the home team you know.
Of course I was quite distracted by the blonde lady seated across from me so I didn't pay to much attention to the game....

[Lena]

Sitting here wondering where has everyone gone?!!

[Dippy]

Sitting here wondering if we have the forum to ourselves?

Hmmm, liberating!

[Lena]

Sitting here thinking Dippy could be right!!

Great to see you by the way Dippy!!

[Dippy]

Hey Lena...some of us old codgers are still knocking about!

Sitting here thinking I could say almost anything and only Lena would know!

[Lena]

Sitting here, waiting for Dippy to tell secrets!!

[Dippy]

Sitting here thinking there's nothing I'm keeping from Lena!

[Lena]

Sitting here thinking, I bet there are lots I don't know from Dippy!!
you can whisper them!!

[Dippy]

Sitting here whispering to Lena...since she likes my intimate details!

[Lena]

Sitting here listening, and wondering if Dippy can hear the echo in here!!

[Dippy]

Sitting here thinking it is so quiet, I can hear the birds singing and two hearts beating!

[Lena]

aww what a cute bunny!!

Sitting here, wondering if Dippy and me are the ones still alive!!

[Dippy]

Sitting here wondering just how far she'd go to keep me interested!

[Lena]

Sitting here wondering whom Dippy is talking about!

[Dippy]

Sitting here keeping my eye on her grammar....just one eye - the other eye has gone to bed.

[Lena]

,,,wondering if he gets to do other things with his eye or eyes!

[Dippy]

Sitting here thinking of all the beautiful sights I get to see!

[Lena]

.....sitting here, fancy some chocolates!

[Dippy]

Sitting here totally freaked out at Lena's statement of need.

[Lena]

Sitting here thinking that an Easter chocolate bunny would taste really good right now!

[Dippy]

Sitting here feeling slightly exposed, and shaking, as usual.

[Dippy]

Sitting here completely stunned...the biggest smile on my face!!

[Lena]

Sitting here wandering how Dippy looks with the biggest smile on his face as well as slightly expose and shaking!!

[Dippy]

Sitting here waiting for somebody to come and find out!!

[Lena]

.......chatting with some crazy but lovable nut!!

[Dippy]

Sitting here sighing...it's a lucky fella who gets time alone with Lena!

[Lena]

.............Thinking Dippy is really sweet!

[Dippy]

Awww, sitting here blushing! Moi, sweet? What a revelation! What will you say next!

[Lena]

......... sitting here with thoughts far away!

[Dippy]

Sitting here silently praying....battling my nerves!!

[Lena]

Sitting here thinking I should get to bed before i fall off the chair sleeping!
Dreamland wait for me!!

[Dippy]

Sitting here thinking...I hope Lena didn't throw out any of my books in her dream!

[Lena]

Books are precious!


........wondering what my dreams were.......

[Dippy]

Sitting here hiding all the paint brushes!

[Lena]

Sitting here freezing!!

[Lena]

Sitting here thinking Spring won't be here soon enough!

[LesTrevau]

Sitting here staring at my keyboard!

[Lena]

Sitting here thinking that Trevau must be bored!